performances

I'm nervous about our performances. Class has definitely gotten better in terms of focus and comfort level, I like my village but I dont think were moving in the same direction in terms of our performance.

I missed one class and it seemed to throw off everything. I wish I had contacted my village beforehand, but I was not intending to be absent. Anyway, they ended up changing somethings and I was totally confused when we had to rehearse. Which was difficult since not all of us were present and we'd lost Rashmi. I hope everything works out. I really dont want to worry about this class in addition to the hundreds of other things I'm behind on. Why is it that it's impossible for me to stay on track?

I went to the Mearsheimer talk today and it was soooooo refreshing. I read his book, The Israel Lobby, and was so inspired to hear him say all that I'd been studying and believing for so long to such a large crowd. I know many people were already in agreement with his arguments, but I'm sure there were also some converts, which is great to think about. Unlike the hate speech coming to campus tomorrow sponsored by John Kennedy. Events like his depress me to no end, and as much as I wanna hear what Serge has to say, I dont. I'm too unstable at the moment to take emotional distress in such high quantities.